Thanks for joining me! I want to start of by sharing a little bit about me. I am 24 years old and have been diagnosed by borderline, PTSD, and major depressive disorder. This blog is a way for me to share what goes on with a borderline person. There is a lot of information on what borderline is, but not much from someone who has it. I want to help people who are struggling with this same disorder.
This journey began with a stay at a Mental Health Hospital in April 2018. For privacy purposes, all names will be changed.
This stay is what started my journey into my recovery. It has not been an easy journey, there was a lot of pain. Each week I will post things that happened that have lead up to this point. I will also post a Dear Diary so you know what it is like in a borderlines mind.
Warning: This blog will have stories of addict, self-harm, abuse, and talk about suicide. This is my borderline story.
“Being a borderline feels like eternal hell. Nothing less. Pain, anger, confusion, hurt, never knowing how I’m gonna feel from one minute to the next. Hurting because I hurt those who I love. Feeling misunderstood. Analyzing everything. Nothing gives me pleasure. Once in a great while I will get too happy and then anxious because of that. Then I self-medicate. Then I physically hurt myself. Then I feel guilty because of that. Shame.
Borderlined 